Making of My Music: Escape

Escape

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I don’t even remember when I started writing this song. It had been a work in progress for many years. I am not sure of the exact experience that pushed me to write it. There have been many times in my life when I have felt overwhelmed and stuck in patterns that were not healthy or beneficial to me.

The first verse speaks to feeling stuck but knowing I need to get out. However, I didn’t always have the tools, knowledge, or ability to do so.

The chorus represents a daydream in a way. Many times I just wanted to “Escape” to a place where I felt supported, a place I could be new, a place where I could feel like I owned my experience. I love imagery of the sun, moon, and stars.

The second verse represents my tendency to stay quiet in some relationships, when maybe I could have spoken up. Yet, once I worked through some of these toxic attachments, it really wasn’t worth wasting the time to discuss it with them.

The bridge and ending, expressing my yearning to “go” and find that place in reality. The ending emphasizes that I need to go where I feel at home and can make my own choices and decisions.

This was the first song that I created other tracks for beyond just my voice and guitar. It was very empowering to add the layers to it to build this world I wanted.

Escape

These four walls are closing in

I can’t live like that

No not again

Over and over I’ve planned my escape

And the exit here

Just ain’t my shape

So I’ll be burning it down and hitting the ground to

Jump from the edge of the horizon

‘cause I just ain’t got no rhyme or reason to stay here

I know…I’ll drag the sun down with me

And I’ll drop straight down into the night

Caught by the stars in a hammock of light

I’m dreaming, I know…but where can I go?

When I close my eyes to pray

Tears well up inside,

Oh everyday

Over and over I held my tongue

I ain’t got no speech for you

The time is passed and gone

So I’ll be tearing it up and trying my luck to

Jump from the edge of the horizon

‘cause I just ain’t got no rhyme or reason to stay here

I know…I’ll drag the sun down with me

And I’ll drop straight down into the night

Caught by the stars in a hammock of light

I’m dreaming, I know…but where can I go?

Where can I go?

There is a place that I know

Kinda feels like home

Yeah I gotta go

It feels so golden

Finally holding, holding my own

-Kelody Fey